All day long I've been sitting here trying to start a new work, ALL DAY LONG. Everything I have tried has failed. This fucking shit has never happened to me before, what a struggle!

Nothing is good enough. I mean, usually I start something randomly and then 5 hours later it's done. I never really think or plan ahead, just happens. Now for some fucking reason I keep coming up with these absolutely awful combinations as a starting platform. A desert and a camel... wow, Alex, that's gonna be one to frame man! Great start asshole.

A wall made out of textures.... and then... ? ...... nothing, delete. The weird thing is I actually have tons of stuff I feel like making, actual ideas... Which is like the first time ever. It seems I can only create things when I don't have a clue what I want to make.

What's that about mjan...

Anyway, I fucking give up for today, it's just not happening. It was 41 degrees outside as well and this goddamn desert wind coming from inland. No escaping that, impossible to work. Keep cool, keep cool. Raaaaaahahahahhugwehje!!

I want to break my entire room into a thousand pieces, ruin this fucking sauna!

"fuck" "fuck" "fuck", so much swearing. Grow up kid!


Watch Deadgirl, it's great, watch it with your parents. They will love it too. Trust me.

out.

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